your fun, 

[ I've been here before ]

your smile is contagious, 

[ I'm terrified to see more]

I so enjoy this 

[really, I overthink]

you see, 

 my heart has been leant out, 

mostly,

 to pricks 

but, I'm perfectly normal 

[ mostly, 

on the brink]

I'm pretty stable

      [sometimes, .. insane ]

[because, I know,
If I let you bring my heart joy,

next 

                       ... is  p a I n]

.j.