that heavy in your chest

to hard to breathe, impossible to move.

that lump in your throat,

that feels more like a noose.

the sadness that fills,

each ounce of your being.

no tears left to cry,

 yet, your heart is still bleeding.

so much to ask,

too much to say,

but what does it matter

theres no miracle cure

and you won’t get your answer.

because,

 theres no saving you from this pain.

deep down, 

you know,

your own stupidity

 is to blame

but you are so 

  desperate 

for 

repair

because this shit,

 is simply too much 

to 

fucking

bear.

.j.