fuck these thoughts and words that fill my head

night after night, i pray them all dead

yet every night, by light of the moon

i end up sifting through images 

 even after trying to drown them with tune

same shit to say

day after day

just adding different hues, 

as to color it in some new way

fuck this mind,

and all that constantly fills it

waking me at all hours,

with a need to type this shit

try to drown them with wine

you’d think that’d work fine?

nope, it only feeds the flame 

seeps out my mind, 

starts pumping through my veins

it’s sort of like some damned disease

disease? 

i wish 

then at least there’d be hope for a vaccine 

~j~