Army boots,
fairy wings,
too short shirt,
a soul that sings.

As me
 as
I will ever be.

Dances freely,
all alone,
needs no approval,
just her own.

As me
 as
I will ever be.

~j~

I want to run.

Across the world

then to the stars.

Some place distant,

some place far.

Alone.

Untouched.

Safe.

No more pain.

A town where I’m

without a name.

But then there’s you.

You’re here

Not there.

And so I stay.

For you, I dare.

j

hopes

i tend

to have so much

hope

i tie it up in

knots

in

hopes

to save it for later

.j.

[just breathe]

Rest your head, thus,
at the small of my back
and slide trembling hands
along trembling thighs.

[just breathe]

Wander my body,
your secluded path,
and coax free
captive, delicate,
butterfly sighs.

[just breathe]

~j~

Let’s take our cars
to that park that we know
full of dandelion tops
who just wait for a blow.
Let’s take off our clothes,
then slip to the ground,
and weave the softest of blankets
with nary a sound.

~j~

Please

Please,

My body aches 

my own fingers sore

I don't want to be alone,

 just imagining you anymore

I need you here

your scent, your sweat, your salt, your touch

your push, your pull, your shuddering rush

I need the flavor 

of your
 flesh

I need to feel 
your 

caress

Give me your groan, and grope, the sound of your moan

I need the weight of your body,

covering my bones.

I hunger for your sweet, and your sour

Your gentleness, and all your power

I need your thrill, and your thrust

{Dear God, you fill me with lust}

I want to feel your swell, your throb, your heightened burst

under the entirety of you, I long to be submersed

I promise to return

 all of your giving

Please,  

.. just tell me your willing.

~j~

I hear it.

This music.

Vivid and loud.

I may hear it alone

and I’m often

not proud
but one day,

some day,

if I am blessed,

I’ll find another

who hears it

and then
fuck all the rest.

~j~

Some Words For You

Word one is; 

‘thrall.'

Two words;

 'need all.'

From two to three;

'adore, I do.'

Time for four;

'I must have you.'

Five words quick;

'you light up my soul'.

Now then hit six;

'we’d be clean out of control.'

Seven;

'I beg you to take me to bed.'

Eight;

'I admit that you’re stuck in my head.'

Nine:

'A man such as you,

I could love forever.'

Ten:

'Start back at one.

And don’t forget this list,

ever.'

~j~

I’d like to drain
this pond
of misery,
down to the sandy,
black bottom,
just to see
what I see
but I won’t,
for the blindness,
it’s suited to me,
so allow me
to swim here,
and please 
just let me be.
~j~