dusting

it seems as if i never come here anymore

not because it's gone

it's all still here

still dancing

between all the glittering words

in my head

and in my heart

i just seem to stop short

of expressing it out loud lately

~

there's a world out there

and i really hate missing out

on just one damned minute of it

~

i'll never be an easy heart to navigate

and i'll never have nothing to express
 or create
or vent about

~

i am still haunted by certain hues

but it will NEVER stop me

from continuing to color my world

No Apologies

Without apologies

a list of what I want

~:~

Crazy laughter between sheets

fingers laced when crossing streets

Pink Carnations instead of Roses

'Lets do that!' and not 'Supposes'

quiet nights and scented candles

a man who's strong and hard to handle

someone smart and intellectual

but for when I'm ineffectual

a tender lover, yet a beast

with stroking hands and biting teeth

acceptance pure and without measure

to be recognized as treasure

to be thought of every minute

if I'm out,.. or if I'm in it

to be the source of inspiration

and endless nights of perspiration

careless kisses when forbidden,

..just a love that can't be hidden.
~j