Grandmas Joyful Girl

I feel you today
[well always]
but i heard you loud and clear
and last night you whispered
right into my ear
'..it will be ok sugar plum
so let yourself feel again,
don’t go through life numb.
its no way to be.
your strong,
please, ..trust me'

i hear you grandma, i really do
its me i don’t trust
but, i have always trusted you

so i’ll pull myself up
and it won’t be easy
and ill try again,
to give my heart freely

i promise, maybe
someday
but today just let me cry
and drown in my tears
and try like hell not to
runaway

~j