This darkness inside

is a preening, black cat

seeking sexual snacks

and a curious lap.

Content in bleak corners,

she sits silent with poise

awaiting fresh wonders

and clever, new toys.

Until you.

That lightness you bring,

that, sweet wondrous soul,

has left here a feline

I just cannot console.

Uninterested in shadows,

where she once hid before,

she wants more of whatever

you’ll let her explore.

So take her.

She’s purring.

She’s ready.

She’s waiting.

It’s the stroke of your hand

she’s now anticipating

~j~

Shhhhhh.
My wish?
Blow you.
Blow your mind.
Blow your soul.
[ & make you mine]

~j

I suppose there’s a certain, quiet beauty to solitude.

[i still think that shit would look prettier in lipgloss & heels]

.j.

~Let us Begin ~

Your lips.

Mm, just so.

At base of spine,

Your fingers twine.

Tongue.

Ah, yes.

You’re doing fine.

Hands grasp hips,

slip  

quick

around,

slide up to breasts,

delight thus found.

~j~

Speak of my lips,
speak of my thighs,
speak of the need
alight in my eyes.

Speak of my touch,
speak of my hair,
speak of the way
I feel down there,

Speak of my give,
speak of my take,
speak of the love
that we might make.

~j~

Once upon a time,

in a land so far away,

lived a girl,

[well, barely living]

with so many words to say.

Words of love,

words of hope,

and unwritten tome of faith,

and she sits,

and she hopes,

for a prince

for whom she’s willing to wait.

But he’ll come,

yes, she knows this,

for life truly

can’t be this tragic,

and he’ll love her,

and he’ll hold her,

and her life

will then be magic.

~j

You see a girl
who is ready to leap;
instead she’s
a girl fairly
light on her feet.

She’s not trying
to die,
she’s not looking
to fall,
she’s just pushing
the boundaries,
outer limits
and all.

Please,
stop worrying so.
Quit stressing
all of her moves.
She’s gonna be
fine once she
get’s back in
life’s groove.

~j

It’s a numb day.
A words unwritten
for they’re
far too dumb day.

It’s a
thoughts thought
but ought not
bare them,
share them day.

It’s a tons to say,
if I felt okay,
won’t stay to play day.

I’m taking my ball
and going home.
[taking my words, too.
They're all I own]

~j

Love’s a little bit
like sketching out
hearts in the sand.

Looks good til
that goddamned huge
tide rolls on in.

~j

There’s no luck to
be found
in a four leaf clover

Nope
{That’s Bullshit}

It’s discovered
in life
when you learn how
to start over.


~j

I don’t want to touch you
but I can’t be that bold.
Then,
I seek more then your mere hold.  
I try to keep calm words still
and clearly, I suck at this skill
Then,
before you know it,
I've swallowed you again, into my soul
and suddenly, I can relate to Alice, 
when falling down the rabbits hole.
And after you’ve gone, I regret my order
why?
Because,
I simply can’t eat ..
for, of you, I’m too full.

~j

Funny.

Her life has taught her to love, like a cigarette.

Just for the puffs that she can get.

Fifteen, twenty minutes tops.

When the smoke is gone,

she’s good to stop.

Light her up if you dare, boys.

~j

Autumn’s heart awakes to sunny day
with ball in hand, she looks to play,
but swings are empty, slide’s bereft,
on this playground, there’s no hope left.

~j

You're a virus

that rushed through my veins

like restless hearts

on a westbound train

a near biohazard,

needing full hazmat suit

your words, 

carried away my heart

like drunken pirates, 

stealing precious loot

and this shit, 

hazardous to my health

and even if

my heart is stealth

I know derailment 

is set for the course

and that heart of mine,

only ends up weighted with remorse

~j

Fuck, I miss you.

Wait. That’s not poetic.

Let me try it again.

[wow, I sound pathetic]

I ache for you

like winter’s day

craves sun’s

sweet kiss

and heated play.

I long for you

like April rains

escape the clouds,

same burst,

same pain.

Ah, screw it.

I miss you.

It’s as simple as that

and no pretty words

can change that fact

~j

And now,
tonight,
I’ll do
as such.

Hang head
off bed,
fill brain
with rush.

And stay
just that way;
til’ discomfort 
submit.

Rather all
memories explode
than this

mind

with you

in it.

~j~

Army boots,
fairy wings,
too short shirt,
a soul that sings.

As me
 as
I will ever be.

Dances freely,
all alone,
needs no approval,
just her own.

As me
 as
I will ever be.

~j~

I want to run.

Across the world

then to the stars.

Some place distant,

some place far.

Alone.

Untouched.

Safe.

No more pain.

A town where I’m

without a name.

But then there’s you.

You’re here

Not there.

And so I stay.

For you, I dare.

j

hopes

i tend

to have so much

hope

i tie it up in

knots

in

hopes

to save it for later

.j.

[just breathe]

Rest your head, thus,
at the small of my back
and slide trembling hands
along trembling thighs.

[just breathe]

Wander my body,
your secluded path,
and coax free
captive, delicate,
butterfly sighs.

[just breathe]

~j~

Let’s take our cars
to that park that we know
full of dandelion tops
who just wait for a blow.
Let’s take off our clothes,
then slip to the ground,
and weave the softest of blankets
with nary a sound.

~j~

Please

Please,

My body aches 

my own fingers sore

I don't want to be alone,

 just imagining you anymore

I need you here

your scent, your sweat, your salt, your touch

your push, your pull, your shuddering rush

I need the flavor 

of your
 flesh

I need to feel 
your 

caress

Give me your groan, and grope, the sound of your moan

I need the weight of your body,

covering my bones.

I hunger for your sweet, and your sour

Your gentleness, and all your power

I need your thrill, and your thrust

{Dear God, you fill me with lust}

I want to feel your swell, your throb, your heightened burst

under the entirety of you, I long to be submersed

I promise to return

 all of your giving

Please,  

.. just tell me your willing.

~j~

I hear it.

This music.

Vivid and loud.

I may hear it alone

and I’m often

not proud
but one day,

some day,

if I am blessed,

I’ll find another

who hears it

and then
fuck all the rest.

~j~

Some Words For You

Word one is; 

‘thrall.'

Two words;

 'need all.'

From two to three;

'adore, I do.'

Time for four;

'I must have you.'

Five words quick;

'you light up my soul'.

Now then hit six;

'we’d be clean out of control.'

Seven;

'I beg you to take me to bed.'

Eight;

'I admit that you’re stuck in my head.'

Nine:

'A man such as you,

I could love forever.'

Ten:

'Start back at one.

And don’t forget this list,

ever.'

~j~

I’d like to drain
this pond
of misery,
down to the sandy,
black bottom,
just to see
what I see
but I won’t,
for the blindness,
it’s suited to me,
so allow me
to swim here,
and please 
just let me be.
~j~

Infinate Playlist

You know that feeling?
That feeling when you just want the right thing
to fall into the right place,
not only because it's right,
but because it will mean that such a thing is still possible?
I want to believe that.

~Nick & Norah's Infinite Playlist

I want to lose

myself in you,

sink into your skin,

draw you in,

clutch at your chest,

know you know best,

but you frighten me,

nay,

I’m scared to death

that you’ll be my downfall,

my final breath,

so don’t let me discover

your beauty within,

just stop me,

just end it,

before it begins.

~j~

That Moment

there's something to be said
for a man
who can do to you
with one press of his finger
what no man has accomplished
in a lifetime...

~j

If she were a kite,

he’d be her string.

If she were a bird,

he’d be her wings.

If she were a boat,

he’d be her sail.

If she were a beach,

he’d be her pail.

If she were a street,

he’d be her light.

If she were a day,

he’d be her night

~j~