Thursday, October 24, 2019


I think.
A bit.
No, stop right there.
I think.
A lot.
Like a bit  *squared.
Infinity.
To the power of ten.
I ponder.
I muse.
I wonder
and then
I realize that
my life’s a mistake.
A mistake
upon error
upon assumption.

[i break]

I wish I were stronger.
I wish I could see
that girl
that I know
I could someday
just be.

.j.

Tuesday, July 16, 2019

you cover me in kind words
you stare at me with eyes, sweet

you touch me with warmth and softness
as we ache for whats beneath

both of us filled with
adoration, intrigue,
tension and heat

you phrase your words
so carefully
you drink from my lips
so gently

it's mutual,
this passion and lust

  .. and this sinful act, 
      
            a must.

.j.










Wednesday, March 13, 2019

head on pillow, 
as night does come
all is quiet, 
as the ceiling fan hums
these thoughts of you, 
they start to consume
and just that quick,
 i wish you in my room
but alas, there is no you
so my touch and i,
 we make do

it starts with such innocent thought,
  just your mere image
i don’t have to think hard,
 for my imagination,
 quite vivid
and too often my thoughts, 
slightly wicked

even as i fight those dirty notions
 my body,  already in motion
my breathing, 
 deep inhale, 
and a slow hot release
my legs,
 begin sliding over cool sheets
my back,
 raises to an arch
my knees, a slight bend
and try as i might to fight it,
my hand ,
       ..begins
              to 
                  descend

i’m warm, and crave you in my wetness
 my hips, now in motion, 
 grow more,
       and more
                  restless

these thoughts, 
keep flying
my fingers, in and out , 
sliding
my temperature, 
rising
my excitement,
 climbing
upon my hand, my body,
 now intensely grinding
my pillow, 
i’m biting
 my moans,
 near whining

my hand and hips 
working in opposition 
my entire body, 
in complete submission
to this idea of you, 
where my fingers now slide
I feel my muscles contract, 
as i continue to glide
out, 
in, 
and around...

and just like that,
my walls clamp down

my senses, all heightened 
my muscles, all tightened
intense contractions, my legs  all a flutter
my entire body,  a tense shudder

my muscles eventually give in 
to a softer twitch
yet,
 just these imagined thoughts of you,
leaves me bewitched

my breath almost empty 
as i take a deep sigh
still wishing it  you,
 between my thighs


because 
truth is 

 it’s your ass
 id love to be gripping tight
as you fucked me, 
deep into the night

so,
here i go again, 
because one thought, is all it takes
and that promise to myself 
to do this only once, 
now,
 I  must   break

~j~

Wednesday, March 6, 2019



I just want to hold you.
Is that such a crime?
One night all alone,
you don’t need to be mine.

I just want to touch you.
Is there a problem with this?
There’s no need for forevers,
I merely ache for your kiss.

I just want to lay next to you.
Do you know what I mean?
Heat to heat, skin to skin,
just our breath inbetween.

.j.

Wednesday, February 27, 2019

.writers.block.


Woosh.

 It's been awhile. 
That feeling ...
 somewhere between Heaven and Hell.
 Perched.
 Teetering. 
Aching.
 Weak.
 I'd so love to write something pretty to you here 
but, 
the truth is,
 well, 
the truth is 
I'm just longing to fuck you.

Prettily
~j~

Tuesday, January 22, 2019



you are not true love 
that knows just how to hold me right

you are merely a warm touch
on a long cold night 

you whisper emotions
I purr only with need

I'm not opening this heart
I'm too afraid to bleed

'why yes, I am a hopeless romantic
but right now,
  I'm here
    purely in greed.

.j.



Thursday, January 3, 2019

Tuesday, September 4, 2018



your fun, 

[ I've been here before ]

your smile is contagious, 

[ I'm terrified to see more]

I so enjoy this 

[really, I overthink]

you see, 
 my heart has been leant out, 
mostly,
 to pricks 

but, I'm perfectly normal 

[ mostly, 
on the brink]

I'm pretty stable

      [sometimes, .. insane ]


[because, I know,
If I let you bring my heart joy,
next 
                       ... is  p a n]


.j.







Tuesday, August 28, 2018


'simple'

is not a word of description
that does you well
your insanely guarded 
of this, I can tell

you share little
even when asked
answers vague
and well masked

theres so much more to you
just beneath the surface
but I hit close
and your nervous

I don't know you
nor you, I

but it's clear 
we're
just 2 hearts
more familiar
with

goodbyes

.j.

Tuesday, August 21, 2018

Shed no tears
for broken me
as my parts
are often stronger
than my whole.
Reservation and Warmth
don’t see eye to eye
and Forthright leaves Private
often wanting to cry.
And then we have Shy,
we forget that she’s there,
because Socially Bold leaves
no attention to spare.
Lively finds Serious
boring as wood
while Perfection declares
Tolerance is
misunderstood.
There are
so many more
of these fine
pieces and bits
that they’re much
better off broken
and battling wits


.j.